I am not going to write a long post here, because honestly i just don’t have one in me.
Today I had to put Blues to sleep, and it was a very difficult, sad day. It was gut wrenching and I feel genuinely sick about it, still.
Blues was the best cat I could ever ask for. I can’t even imagine wanting another one after her, having had her as a companion for almost half of my life. The ride with her to the vet was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life and if you put a gun to my head and told me i had to do it again, i’d literally refuse.
Having said all of this, i need to move on, be strong and recover. I’ve been able to hold back tears so far (at least for the past 5 hours) so maybe i am on my way to that recovery. I know there will be bad days ahead, but hopefully i will be able to only focus on the positives as time passes and remember her for what she was – dad’s little princess.
Goodbye Blues, your mom and dad love you.
