I just finished reading Artie Lange’s Too Fat to Fish and whatever sympathy i may have had for the former Stern Show comic is now totally gone. If you loved Artie on the show, then i would recommend NOT picking up this book.

In a nutshell, Artie is a drug addict. Odds are, even after his latest attempted suicide, that he is STILL a drug addict. Addiction of course is a sad thing, and you want to see people shake it. Artie however, despite being given like a hundred chances to get clean, didn’t. This book more or less talks about all the times that he told family and friends he was getting clean, but actually wasn’t. It was a depressing read, and the only reason i finished it was because i felt like my time would have been completely wasted had i NOT saw it through to the end.

I hope Artie does get clean one day, but i am sad to say i don’t think it will ever happen.

]]> http://www.notwillsmith.com/uncategorized/too-fat-to-fish-review/feed 4 http://www.notwillsmith.com/uncategorized/week-four http://www.notwillsmith.com/uncategorized/week-four#comments Tue, 16 Feb 2010 07:04:55 +0000 William Smith http://www.notwillsmith.com/?p=482 Its been almost a month now that I have been in Salem and there are a number of things on my mind, none so more present than my cat, Blues.

Blues hasn’t been herself since the move. Maybe it even started before, who knows. In any event, over the past several days things have taken a turn for the worse with her and now I am faced with an agonizing decision. After taking her to the vet this morning, and after getting blood work done, its now apparent that she has kidney failure. This has manifested itself in the fact she isn’t able to have a bowel movement, that she is peeing on herself and her bedding, and now, she more or less just lays in her pan. She is lethargic, and obviously in a lot of discomfort.

It is amazing how fast this all has happened. Just a month ago I would have never thought she was sick, or that vital internal organs were basically “giving up.” But, they were.

So tomorrow I will call the vet clinic to discuss our options, but it is clear to me that I am going to need to make peace with letting her go soon. It may not be because of this kidney failure, but it could be from any number of things. The decision might get taken out of my hands if i just can’t afford the treatment. The blood work alone was 400 dollars.

Blues has been an awesome companion. She isn’t just a cat. I remember getting her. I was living on my own away from home the first time in an apartment. I was lonely, and I had just broken up with my girlfriend at the time. I went to the pound to look around and saw this odd looking black cat. What was odd about her was the shape of her head, something i don’t even really notice any more I am so used to seeing it. I brought her home, and I remember that it took her a few days to be comfortable enough to come out of hiding.

Back then, Blues had claws and she would use them, frequently. I didn’t have a bed in my apartment. Instead, i slept on an old couch that my folks had given me when I left home. Blues would sleep on the top of the backrest of the couch. I remember she had a loud purr, and it basically helped me go to sleep at night.

How ironic that I am in similar circumstances now. I’m by myself, in an apartment and it is just me and her. Unlike then, I know she can’t lay next to me and purr to put me to sleep.

This was over 12 years ago, back when she started on this adventure with me. We’ve been to Florida, Georgia, Arizona and now, Oregon. She has seen 5 different dogs come in and out of my life – Penny, Brita, Nadia and now Scooter and Danny. Throughout it all, she has been a great, great cat. More than I could ever ask for.

I haven’t cried this much in god knows how long. In fact, I had to take about a half hour break just in between writing the last paragraph.

Maybe in some sort of symbolic gesture (although i have no idea what it symbolizes) I decided to shave off my beard. I’ve been so anxious about her condition, i was literally yanking chunks of hair out of my face. Now after crying so hard I have a massive headache and a long day ahead of me tomorrow.